Inadequacy

I love my cell group. I really do. Meeting them on sundays is a joy, and sharing our lives together a great privilege. In them I see people who have found their own unique path to God; seeing them grow in love and sharing in their struggles and triumphs convinces me of the reality and power of God.

Deep inside, I know that I'm inadequate to shepherd them, and during nights like this these feelings seem to well up in self-doubt. If these children of Yours are so precious in Your sight, O Lord, then why entrust them to me? You know my flaws and failings; often it seems that I'm barely keeping up, struggling to following You....much less leading them in Your ways.

And though tonight I would like just to run away, even for awhile, I know that this is my path and portion. So Lord I ask not that You lift my burdens, but that You grant me stronger shoulders to bear them. Help me to love You, and out of that overflow, to love them.

Amen.