Surrender.

Surrender is scary.

Especially the kind that is total, without any "terms" and "compromises". Yet this is the kind of surrender God demands from us, in every area of life, in every season of life. 

Galatians 2:20 says 

I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

A life surrendered to Jesus is directed by him; its eventual destiny is hidden in him; its everyday is lived with his love; its heart is broken at the things that breaks his; its time is spent on the things important to him; its timings and decisions hinge on his will; its relationships are characterised by the love and self sacrifice that are so evident of Jesus.

That's scary. In our very core is the fear of losing ourselves, our identity, our will, to something like a harsh overload/slave driver or simply callous Person that would utterly destroy our hearts. What if what He wants is not what I want? What if His plans are not best for me?

The closer it is the object of surrender is to our hearts, the more scary/painful surrender is. And when it's the love of your life......

And yet we can live no other way; for either He is Lord of all, or not Lord at all. And we (eventually, hopefully) find that our fears are unfounded; for He is the lover of our soul. How can He who came and died for me, not also give me every good and perfect thing according to His riches in glory? I mess up; I fail to love; I cannot protect her...but Lord You can.



Lord, I surrender Mel to You.